Alan Hutton gives an exclusive and candid interview to the readers of hotspur in the latest issue of the Club's official monthly magazine - in stores now.
The Scottish international right-back, who signed from Glasgow Rangers in January, talks about the horror injury he sustained back in February 2005, making the big decision to join Spurs, and settling down in London ever since.
Of course, Alan has established himself in Juande Ramos' side during his short time with us, but in this interview he reveals it could have all come to an abrupt end three years ago.
Alan badly broke his leg in a league game against Kilmarnock while playing for Rangers, and he recalls the painful memories.
"I could see the tackle was coming. The ball had come between us and the guy had knocked it to the side, and I was thinking, can I get it? Yes! No! I won't...In that fraction of a second I paused, and then went for it again, and by that time it was too late, and he's knocked it too far. But as I was swinging for the ball, he's jumped up, and obviously he's leading with his knee and it hit the middle of my shin, and then...
"I went down and I can't explain the pain. At first it was just numb, and I went to get up and it was like half of my leg was still on the floor. I instantly knew. I've seen the pictures after, and there's my knee buckled right round his leg. It was horrible. I felt sick and went white. I wouldn't wish it on anybody.
"In the ambulance I kept on asking, ‘When would I be back? How long would I be out? What was going to happen?' From half past three until the next morning were the worst hours of my life, knowing what I'd done, and going through my mind the question, Am I going to get back? Is this the end of it?"
As he goes on to reveal, it took some time for Alan to get back to his best and he often found himself faced with suggestions from press and fans alike that he was not the same player as before.
But it was his mental strength that he says got him through this tough period, and as we all now know, the rest is history. Alan has undoubtedly gone on to establish himself as one of the best defenders in Britain, if not Europe, with his performances for club and country.
It is this form that eventually earned him his move to the Barclays Premier League, although coming to Spurs was not an easy decision to make for the 23-year-old.
He adds: "It was a massive decision for me, not just leaving a team I loved and grew up watching, but my family and everything in my life was there and would have to go. To be quite honest, I didn't realise how big a club Spurs were. I came down and met the manager. Before I saw him, I was very undecided, but 15 or 20 minutes with the manager made my mind up."
On settling in, Alan goes on to say: "The Spurs boys have been brilliant. They have taken to me as quickly as I have to them. Robbie Keane has been a great support. I've got a house just round the corner from him and he's shown me the ropes of the area.
"The lifestyle down here is totally different. The city's that big I still get lost. My missus loves all the shops! When my family's down we do things maybe people take for granted, like the London Eye, the Houses of Parliament. That's everyday stuff for people down here, but for me it's not, it's all new. Taking my wee boy to the London Aquarium was unbelievable."
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