Gus Poyet admits that his loss of temper against Crystal Palace that cost him a three-game ban was foolish.
The midfielder saw red following a clash with Dougie Freedman after the striker appeared to tread on him in the FA Cup tie on January 3.
Gus subsequently missed the encounters with Liverpool, Manchester City and Fulham before coming back with a bang with the winner against Portsmouth on Saturday.
But he concedes that he should have kept his cool against Fulham.
"Without a doubt!" he stated. "To be fair, I've been playing for 17 years and have done probably exactly the same 20 times and never been sent off for it. I would never headbutt or try to hurt someone.
"I said to a few people that when that player stepped on me it didn't hurt me enough to stay down. It was enough hurt to get up and react - and it was sad."
Certainly sad for a player with his unbridled enthusiasm for training and playing. Not being able to be involved in the preparations for games was the time when it hit him hardest.
"It was really bad," added Gus, who made his return in the heartbreaking replay reverse to Manchester City last Wednesday before scoring that winner against Portsmouth. "The best thing about the few weeks without football is that they tell you to go, 'we don't want to see you, so forget about football'.
"I think it was good for my mind because I was thinking too much and trying to be involved. But then when you get close to a game you have to move away and cannot even play with the reserves - so it is a little bit strange."
A bonus for Gus during his time out is that he has now shed the lightweight cast that has been protecting his wrist since he suffered a fracture in pre-season.
"Back to normal life with no protection! Things are getting better, although there are still a few things to heal in there.
"It is a relief, it was quite difficult to have to wear protection for five months. At the same time, I am pleased as well because it allowed me to play and not be out."